More happy, less ache

“A happy heart makes the face cheerful, but heartache crushes the spirit” – Proverbs 15:13

Friends, I must confess that lately my spirit has been crushed. 

My heart aches for the friends and family that we left behind in Hawaii. The relationships that we built in our five years there are so special to us. It is so hard not to see the faces and hear the voices that we are used to on a daily basis. 

My heart aches for our daily life there. I’m sure it’s not a surprise to hear that the quality of life in Hawaii is hard to beat. I was comfortable in our world. I knew the best spots to take the kids. I knew how to find parking at our favorite beaches and the best times to be on the road. I felt like I knew how to meet all of our needs and that I had all of the tools available to do so. We had a rhythm. 

Leaving Hawaii wasn’t an easy choice. We talked and talked and talked and talked about it for ages. We knew it was going to be hard.

But I’m surprised by just how much my heart aches.

How it’s set off by such little things.

I didn’t imagine that I would cry every time the kids play pretend and “go to Hawaii”. Or how I would cry every time I open another box of things that hasn’t been opened since I packed it in Hawaii. 

Most days I can’t even bring myself to look at photos from our time there. It hurts too much. 

No, it’s not easy. At least not for me.

I’m having a hard time plugging in. I’m having a hard time finding a new rhythm. Both things will come in time. 

Despite my heartache, I don’t regret our choice. 

The biggest reasons that we left were to be closer to family (although we did leave some pretty awesome family behind – love you Taniguchis) and to buy a house. Both which have already been accomplished and both which I am SO grateful for. 

I know that this heartache is temporary. 

I pray daily for God to show us why he brought us here. For more happy, less ache. 

Let’s do this, 2018.

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Baptizing the Byrds

When we were in Michigan, we had the opportunity to get all three of our babies baptized at a place that is very special to our family – Fortune Lake Lutheran Camp

If you know me even a little bit, I’m sure you’ve heard me talk about this camp. It’s been in our family’s lives for a long time (ask, and my Grandpa will proudly tell you of the year he was given the “best boy camper” award – with a pencil to prove it).

It’s truly my happy place and, even though I’m too old to be a camper, I make sure to visit every summer and I look forward to sending our kids there too! 

We had a sweet little ceremony down at the lake. The pastor had asked the summer staff to join us as well and they sang a couple of songs (which just so happened to be my two favorite camp songs – woo hoo!)

It was such a beautiful day that I will cherish forever. 


To my three sweet babies, 

In a small ceremony at Fortune Lake, we welcomed you into a community of faith that, we feel, is so needed in this broken world.

Daddy and I pray that you all learn to know Christ and follow Him. While we wish we could just make that decision for you, all we can do is promise to love and teach you to the best of our ability. 

Your individual faith journeys will look different. You will all experience love and loss. You will question and explore. You will be frustrated and you will be exhilarated. Just always know that you are special, unique and created by God and that before you were our children, you were His. 

You wont remember this special day, but that’s OK. Just always remember you are loved. Loved by your family. Loved by the church community. Loved by each other. Loved by God. 

May Jesus bless you and keep you always. May he make his face shine upon you and give you peace. You are the lights of the world. 

Love, 

Mom

 

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