Hi, my name is Natasha. I have a 5 month old baby, and she doesn’t sleep through the night.
[This is the part where you all say “Hiiii Natasha”]
Oh wait, this isn’t sleepdeprivedmamas anonymous? My bad…
Maybe there isn’t a group of fellow moms of little ones that don’t sleep through the night that I need to confess my “problem” to (admitting you have a problem is the first step ), but sometimes it feels like there is supposed to be. And not because I think it’s a problem. Because I don’t.
Lyla still wakes up every 3-4 hours at night to nurse. Every once in a while she will spoil us with a longer stretch, but that is pretty rare. When I tell this to my mommy friends, they are almost always shocked. They offer their condolences and start sharing their “secrets” on how to get baby to sleep longer. They make me feel like it’s a problem.
But to me, it’s not a problem.
Lyla is a busy girl. She really doesn’t stop moving unless she is asleep. She’s not quite crawling yet, but has figured out how to scoot herself around the house and is always finding new places to hide from mom (under her crib is the current favorite). She has already decided that time spent cuddling with mama is wasted time.
That’s why those nighttime feeding are not a problem. After I feed her, she falls asleep in my arms. Instead of putting her right back into her crib and then crawling back to our bed, I spend a few minutes just holding her. Smelling her. Soaking her in. She nuzzles her little head into my neck and we sit in the peaceful darkness. I rub her little back and plant kisses on the top of her head. I pray for her.
Of course, I want to get more sleep. Some days it’s harder to go on little sleep than others, but I know that this wont last forever. So instead of cursing the fact that she doesn’t sleep through the night yet, I’m going to embrace the opportunities that I have for these special “secret” snuggle sessions. Now say that three times fast 😉